The one that’s been dividing all parties involved Where, on one side, you’ve had your entire world shattered by abuse Where you’ve been forced to start over Where, if you’re lucky to get out in one piece, you have to defend your actions for ‘staying’ as long as you did The fence where, on theContinue reading “The Fence”
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Why I Don’t Celebrate Mother’s Day
I have 3 children Only one is living The last 3 years have been the roughest 3 years for both of us From surviving psychological abuse to being thrown in cramped living quarters just to keep from living on the streets From completely losing what little support we had to trying to navigate a worldContinue reading “Why I Don’t Celebrate Mother’s Day”
Some Cages Don’t Have Bars
You carry them in your head To break free of that cage is next to impossible by oneself Unless you’ve sat in that cage Unless you’ve felt it’s talons grip the brain Unless you’ve heard that lock click shut Unless you’ve tried every key to break the lock open Unless you’ve tried every crowbar toContinue reading “Some Cages Don’t Have Bars”
The Trauma Conversation: Physical
Where to even begin… This is only the tip of the iceberg From the difficulty with sleep (both falling and staying asleep) To the random lightheaded essay (even after eating) From the constant fatigue To the increased headaches and migraines But the one that bothers me the most is the anxiety attacks. They hit randomlyContinue reading “The Trauma Conversation: Physical”
The Trauma Conversation: Behavioral
The red flags are there They’ve been there for awhile But with no support system, they go unnoticed From avoiding places because of the memories associated with it To avoiding attending certain activities because there are individuals there who closely resemble the abuser From withdrawing from certain social activities because social interactions no longer areContinue reading “The Trauma Conversation: Behavioral”
The Trauma Conversation: The Emotional
I am having this conversation There are plenty of people who don’t think it’s as bad as I claim I disagree I’m living it Are you there when I’ve checked out mentally because of the trauma? Are you there when a trigger appears and I have to fight with every fibre to keep from beingContinue reading “The Trauma Conversation: The Emotional”
Put Your Foot Where Your Mouth Is
With each passing day, the division grows It’s existed for awhile The pandemic made it worse Exponentially worse Unless your in the midst of it, you don’t really see the effects of it There’s been talk of ways to bridge that gap Give those in need a hand UP Social programs are having trouble keepingContinue reading “Put Your Foot Where Your Mouth Is”
The Great Divide: Judging a Book by It’s Cover
I can tell you until I’m blue in the face what the problem is You can tell what’s ‘needed’ to ‘fix’ it The problem? Nobody is listening It’s one thing to see a problem To view it from your perch To put your spin on it based on what you see To come to aContinue reading “The Great Divide: Judging a Book by It’s Cover”
Shattered
Burnout PTSD No village No support Roadblocks everywhere To quote the song ‘Shattered’ by O.A.R. ‘But how many times can I break ’til I shatter?Over the line, can’t define what I’m after’ The end of the tunnel is there But it keeps moving The solutions you keep suggesting have already been tried But they leadContinue reading “Shattered”
At Odds
I see it I am very well aware of where we are I am very well aware of where we need to be I am very well aware of where others THINK we are I am very well aware of where others THINK we should be I am very well aware of the gap betweenContinue reading “At Odds”