‘I Walk A Lonely Road…’

Overwhelmed. Overstimulated. Frustrated. Burnt out. Alone. Lost. I’m tired of sounding like a broken record. I’m tired of the same advice.

What do I need? I need someone to be able to physically take my place for multiple hours so i can take an uninterupted break. I need to be able to sleep for more than 5 hours a night. I need to be able to sleep past 6 am. I need someone else to take over morning duties without asking. I need someone to take over ALL of my daily tasks without asking. I need someone to take over my mental load. I need to be able to take a break without someone asking a thousand questions. I need contact with other humans – ACTUAL humans – not a face online. I need someone to take over if they see I’m starting to get overwhelmed. I need to be able to breathe. I need to eat in peace. I need to be able to vent without being told to stop complaining (there is a difference). And that’s just the tip of the iceberg. I’m not expecting everyone to be a mind reader, but to be able to read the situation. All it takes is for people to pause and take a look around them. The support system that so many mothers need is there and can be tapped into, but if no one is paying attention – no matter how loud the mother speaks – how can you be heard?