I’m Done With the Lemons!

I have never felt more abandoned that I have right now. Knowing everything that has happened in the last year, combined with the knowledge with what we’ll be facing in the coming weeks, overwhelmed doesn’t even begin to cover it.

This is no longer a matter of ‘just breathe’ and ‘one step as a time’. Our lives are about to be uprooted because of a ripple effect from one toxic situation. It was never our intention to stay where we are forever. – it was merely meant to be a stepping stone. When we were in a position to leave, it was to be on OUR terms.

At the beginning of this journey, there was the possibility of hope and new opportunities. Roadblocks, hiccups and hurdles were to be expected. No journey ever goes off without a hitch. We didn’t expect to get sideswipped. First, it was the potholes. Then the hurdles and roadblocks. Detours soons followed. The path forward was no longer clear and started to become murky. Slowly, the puzzle peices started to fall into place when the thinly veiled image started to erode. What was once unseen now became as clear as day. The only problem: Who would believe the new girl? His grip over the situation would prove to be a strong one. He knew what he was doing. He knew that I now knew. But, of course, he didn’t care. The damage that he inflicted may be invisible and may have taken awhile to be discovered, but it finally began to rear it’s ugly head. Now, it’s come to a head and we’re on the losing head. With only weeks to find a way out. The feeling of abandonment has never been so great.

The road ahead is filled with even more potholes, roadblocks and detours. The only thing I am certain of right now is the need to stay up here. The support that my son has gotten through the school system has been HUGE. There are concerns that we have regarding where he is in the grand scheme of things and the school is making it known that they have his back. To pull him out would be detrimental. Children may be resilient, as my son as shown many times over, but staying put in the current school system is the best option for him.