Make it Stop!

Overwhelmed.

Overstimulated.

Stretched too thin.

Constantly walking on eggshells.

Pushed past my breaking point.

Taunted.

Meltdown galore.

Emotionally exhausted.

Within a three hour time span, emotions were were flying in every which direction. Trying to contain them wasn’t an option. Letting them spill was the only way to go. It lead to emotional exhaustion from every one involved.

The last year has been rough on everyone. For the last 3 days, I’ve been dealing with a sick child. Today, on top of being sick, he was working through some big emotions. It lead to a HUGE meltdown.

Today, of all days, all of it got to me. The narcissist and the ripple effect of his actions. The fact that nobody believes me and I can’t get him to stop. The fact that our lives are being flipped upside down because of a psychopath. The sick child and his big emotions. The lack of support. The sense of being overwhelmed kicked in. The overstimulation. I started having a meltdown from all the emotions but I had to stop myself because I knew it was going to be used against me if I continued. The need for it to stop is immense and can’t be emphasized enough. The roller coaster needs to finish its run and let us off. Safely. In a place where we can start over, but yet, not leave the area we’re in so my son’s school year won’t be abruptly cancelled.