Perception vs reality
That seems to be a battle that is currently playing out in my little world
Having dealt with a narcissist, I am very well aware of where I am mentally, physically and psychologically. Trying to convey that seems to be an impossible task. This is something that can’t be easily walked away from.
The mental games that are played by the narcissist are life altering. You don’t realize the toll it’s taken until you look back and see all the red flags looking back at you. By the time you realize it’s a problem, it’s too late and you’re drowning in lake of problems you didn’t even create. Getting out of it proves to be impossible because all life saving devices have been removed.
For the past week, I have been on a roller coaster for emotions. Every single one is valid. There is a grief, a mourning, of seeing what was lost and what you’ll never know because of what happened. A coming to terms.
A path forward now needs to be created. One that involves people that will no longer be in lives. A new future where we are now keeping others at a distance. Whether they stay, time will tell. There’s a divide in how they think things SHOULD have been done, but our reality dictated otherwise.
For now, we move forward in a way that works for us. Where that leads us, I do not know. I just know that it may not look like the future we originally intended and more like one that was meant for what we need.
Island of Misfit Mamas 