The Mental Strain

Overwhelmed

Overstimulated

Under supported

Today, it was definitely a trip

The past 18 months have been difficult. There are good days. There are bad days. Today was definitely one of the bad ones.

You started flexing your control early today. It set the tone for tbe rest of the day. Then life happened. It only added insult to injury, salt to the wound.

At one point, I lost it. I tried not to. I knew full well if I did, you’d use it against me. You always do. But I lost it anyway. I’m human. I can’t keep things in. It’s not healthy.

Thankfully, the outburst didn’t last long.

But today did highlight one very important thing: the mental strain that this whole situation has brought about. It isn’t a healthy situation to be in. You’re making it a point to keep it that way. I still refuse to let you.

You have the upper hand. But I still refuse to let you harass me or my son.