You attempted to take away my right to express my emotions
To the rest of the world, that may not seem like a big deal
But you full well know how much of an impact it actually has
Right from the very beginning, you took my reactions and used them against me
Angry that you kept the heat off? ‘You’ve got an anger problem’
Upset that both my son and I are freezing? ‘You’re too emotional’
Frustrated that it’s been a rough day, nothing going right? ‘You’re imagining things’
With every emotion that was expressed, it was twisted and used against me
Whether I got mad at you for harassing me or I was having a hard time because the day proved to take an unexpected turn, you took the opportunity to make it worse
It’s hard to put it into words since it all centered around actions, hidden behind closed doors
Actions that can be easily denied since no evidence was left behind
You thrive of nuances
Results usually meant psychological warfare
Leaving hidden scars
Scars that be easily denied, explained away
It became a case of ‘Damned if I do, damned if I don’t’
Show my emotions, getting frustrated with things like a normal human, and you’d use it against me and attempt to make it worse by finding ways to keep repeating the process
Finding what makes me tick and going all in, trying so very hard to make sure I look like the unstable one because you keep pushing my buttons and making sure I react
If I don’t react, you dig in your heels and go all in, not stopping until you’re actions elicit a reaction
I shouldn’t have to suppress myself to keep you from harming me, nor should I have to endure a barrage of actions meant to elicit a reaction when I refuse to engage
Island of Misfit Mamas 