October 2022
It was a new beginning
As it turned out, it wouldn’t be the new beginning that I originally thought
What followed would be a test
A walk down a path that I didn’t even think fathomable
The mental health of my son and I ended up dragged through mud
Run through the gutter
Wrung out and left out to dry
I begged and pleaded as I watched us go down a path we shouldn’t have been on
A path we were forced onto because someone with a dark triad personality got caught in the act of pulling an illegal activity
I got questioned: ‘But why…?’
After all, why would someone go out of their way just to make the lives of others completely miserable?
I got questioned as to why we didn’t just leave
Or why I didn’t try to ‘reason’ with the dark triad personality
It was implied I wasn’t doing enough
Despite drowning from being put in an unimaginable situation
Despite not being able to come up for air
Despite being forced into survival mode
Despite roadblock after roadblock after roadblock
Despite being doing everything by the book to try to get the psychological abuse to stop
But it only got worse
People started walking away
Leaving my son and I to fight a war we were never meant to be a part of
A war we didn’t even start
We were gaslighted
Told to ‘get over it’
We were forced to leave on terms that were less than desirable
Into another situation that proved to be just as traumatic
We didn’t see that coming, either
But it was there
We reached out for help again
Only to be passed around
Told to go one way
Then the other
Until we ended up running in circles
A few glimmers of hope popped up
Only to be overshadowed by the bigger picture
Then a chance encounter
It came as a suggestion at first
A phone call later and a stranger now is helping create a path
Coming from experience…
Knowing what it takes to leave abusive and toxic situations…
One step at a time…
One day at a time…
One breath at a time…
When a stranger does more in 30 minutes…
But will it go anywhere?
Island of Misfit Mamas 