I know I’m enemy no. 1

All I had to do was say no

I’ll gladly stay your enemy

I’d rather stand up to you and remain enemy no. 1 than be a punching bag

Scars fade

My self worth won’t

You drew the line, than dared to cross it

I have mine, and to many, it’s so out in left field that it comes across as unbelievable

It’s definitely an unique one, but it’s not any less real

A narcissist neighbor. One who is obsessive. Malignant. Malicious. Covert. Sly. Cunning. Charming. A wolf in sheep’s clothing.

And the whole thing took off when I found out he was fiddling with the thermostat and HVAC system. His mask came off not too long afterwards. And he’s been trying to keep his control ever since.

Psychological warfare.

This only way I know how to describe it.

Everything happens behind closed doors. No physical evidence left behind. Only invisible scars. Anything that gets brought up can be easily explained away as something else. Only for things to get worse as he sinks in his heels. All because I had the audacity to stand up to him.

The day will come where the truth I speak is verified.

Until then, the narcissist will keep doing his dirty work behind closed doors. Using his enablers and flying monkeys to do his dirty work. Making me out to be tbe bad guy.

It’s only a matter of time…

The universe is watching…

You’re determined

You’ve been persistent

Slowly, but surely, you’ve been laying the groundwork

The ultimate goal is to break me down

Wear me out

Give up

Give in

There’s only one problem: I’m stubborn

I may be broken but I refuse to be treated like crap

Boundaries are now needed because of what you’ve done

You keep trying to push them, but I refuse to budge

I see how you keep trying to test them on a daily basis

I refuse to budge

I have every right to be treated fairly

And I will continue to push back

I see it on a daily basis

You avoid me like the black plague

I’ve done absolutely nothing wrong

But you have

And you know it

If, by chance, I’m outside and you need to leave, you wait. Then you make a mad dash to your SUV and avoid eye contact.

You watch.

You obsess.

You avoid.

Your behaviour speaks volumes.

…that you’re the problem!

You were gone for 48 hours. There was a shift in atmosphere the entire time you were gone. I knew you were coming back from your excursion today, only because one of your flying monkeys accidentally gave it away. The second you got home, everything shifted again. This time, for worse…

The mind games started before you even got back, but they really ramped up the second you walked through that door…

The psychological impact…

The chess game…

The obsession…

You’re definitely the problem…

…despite how much you try to make it me!

You haven’t been home in 24 hours and there’s a definite shift

The air is lighter

I can now relax without being eavesdropped on

I don’t have to walk on eggshells

I don’t have to worry about you keeping a watchful eye on me

I can be free to do what I want without any repercussions

It may only be temporary, but the change is refreshing

And a well needed reminder that YOU’RE the problem, NOT me

It’s amazing how things change for the better when you’re not around

No matter how many times I’ve asked

No matter how many times I’ve reached out

No matter how many times I’ve pleaded

Society still has a deaf ear

No matter how many times people have said to ‘reach out’

No matter how many times people have said ‘just ask’

No matter how many times people have said ‘speak up’

Society still has a deaf ear

I don’t fit in a bubble

My situation can’t easily be fixed with ‘Do this, go here, do that’ solution

The solution isn’t a ‘one size fits all’ solution

There’s no easy fix

This is a HUGE gray area

Where the solution needs to be as unique as the problem

I’m tired of the rose colored glasses

Society has failed me

It’s not quite what I expected

When this journey first started, there was a lot of unknowns

The path to this point may be broken

The going forward from here may be unclear

But it’s still being walked

A lot had changed

Bridges have been burned

An untold story still waits to be heard

Mistakes may have been made, but they resulted in important lessons being learned

A new future waits

Away from the chaos, where peace and solitude reside

Most importantly, life away from you and your reign of tyranny

A girl that told you no

A girl that is standing up to you

A girl that is standing firm in her position

A girl that refuses to let go

A girl that doesn’t agree with your authoritarianism

A girl. An object to control. Someone you consider beneath you.

But I’m a girl that knows her rights

I may be just a girl

But I’m a girl that has the audacity to keep fighting

A girl that knows she on the right path

A girl that knows she’s doing the right thing

For every time I fight back, and you keep insisting I shouldn’t, I know I’m doing something right

The harder you keep trying to make my life miserable, because I refuse to back down, I know I’m doing something right…

I’m just a girl, but I’m more than you’ll ever be…

You just will not give up

Your obsession is getting worse by the day

I’ve done absolutely nothing wrong

All I did was ask that you to stop

But you took that as an act of rebellion

The more I fight back, the more you dog in your heels

You’re determined to win

To break me

To push me so far over the edge that I’ll never recover

I’m not giving in