From The Kindness of a Stranger

Today, I lost it. All the events of the past 18 months just boiled over and I lost it. I shouldn’t have, but I did.

As a result, I almost did stupid. Thankfully, I didn’t. A stranger I didn’t know stopped me. She knew. I didn’t have to say a word. She just knew. My demeanor said it all.

It’s been a whirlwind. A nightmare. Words cannot even begin to explain what the situation did to mental state. The effects of a narcissist aren’t easy to explain. Healing isn’t going to happen overnight. Support proved to practically nonexistent. It’s one thing to have sympathy, but it’s a completely different situation when you actually take action and help.

But today did prove something: sometimes, a stranger can have more of a positive effect than a familiar face.

The Man Behind the Mask

You’re not happy with me

But I don’t care

You have absolutely no right to treat me like I’m nothing more than a piece of dirt

I have no regrets standing up to you.

You’re an abuser. An evil entity. A malignant and covert individual.

Karma is waiting for you.

Your mask has come off. The wolf in sheep’s clothing has been exposed. The man behind the curtain has now made an appearance.

You may not like me for it, but I don’t care.

The Nonsense…

You’re trying

For the past three days, you’ve been pulling out every trick in your playbook and going full throttle

You may have me frustrated

You may have me angry at you

But I see right through you

But boy, have you been trying

I know I’ve been frustrating you to no end when you figured out I was giving you the silent treatment. You retaliated by going deep with the tried and true plays from your playbook. And you kept trying.

I don’t see you stopping. Even if a higher authority asked you to (like a government official). Because it’s not in you to stop.

Really?

I know you’re not happy with me

I know you’re frustrated

You’re actions are very telling

Today, your ‘dog whistle’ came out. For something that’s supposed to be inaudible, you were being extremely loud and obnoxious with it.

If you’re looking for a reaction, try somewhere else. Just because you decided to turn up the volume on the ‘dog whistle’, it’s not going to change a thing. It’s still the same tired play from the same tired playbook. The only difference is you’re playing it for everyone to hear.

The Nerve

I know you’re not happy with me

I figured you out. Then, I had the nerve to stand up to you

I know you think I shouldn’t have done that

After all, how dare I? I attempted to take away your control, your power.

I can’t even begin to comprehend how someone like you exists. The pure evil that spews from you. The lengths that you went to just to get back at me. Going through my child to get to me. Using your own child as a pawn. Involving your wife as a flying monkey, an enabler.

I will always wonder why. But I know I’ll never understand.

It seems the tides have turned, but I know it’s not over. To you, it’ll never be over. I am now public enemy number one.

I had the nerve…

Possibly…?

I can’t quite put my finger on it but it kinda feels like something had changed

It’s kinda been hinted at for the last two weeks, but there’s something in the atmosphere that shifted

I’m still expecting things to go back to the way they were. You don’t give up your control that easily. If there was a way, you always found it.

Maybe things have changed, but with everything that has happened in the last year and a half, I have my doubts.

I still believe that we’ll come out on the other side, even if it’s in pieces. The ball is rolling on getting us out.

But something still feels different. It’s only a matter of time.

Game. Set. Match?

It feels like we’ve turned a corner

The ball has changed courts

But I’m not holding my breath

You’re a very charismatic individual. You’ve had the world at your fingertips for who knows how long. Of course they were going to believe you before they believed me. You’re the family man with the ‘golden image’ and I’m the newcomer who did things differently.

But then I caught a glimpse of something. I caught you in a lie. Right off the bat. I didn’t realize it at the time. I didn’t want to. After all, who would lie about something illegal?

But I roused your suspicions. I never fully trusted you. You saw it before I did. But I kept pecking away. I caught a glimpse of the demon lurking beneath the facade. Little did I know the hell you’d put us through.

It was like playing chess. You’re always 5 steps ahead. Every move I made was challenged.

But then something changed. The tide turned.

Your arrogance took over. You had gotten away with so much for so long.

I’m still not fully convinced this is the end. You don’t like losing, but you gave yourself away.

The days ahead will determine if I’m right. Until then, I’m laying low. There’s no need to stir the pot. I have no reason to. I have no interest in retaliation.

I Know

I know you’re not happy with me

I figured out what you were doing

Then I had the nerve to stand up to you

You made it a point to make my life miserable

It became an obsession

You kept at it

Digging away

The ‘dog whistle’ gets louder by the day

The eerie silence hasn’t stopped, either eavesdropping every chance you get

You flow between the two with ease

People expect us to move back where we came from. They see it as a failure. Because of what you’re doing.

One way or another, we will come out on the other side. Safe. Intact. In a new home. Without having to move back.

When A Little Says A Lot

The crunch is on

You’re still trying to skirt the rules

Test the boundaries

What can you still get away with?

The ‘dog whistle’ is still being played loudly when you think it’s ‘best’

The eerie quiet is more prominent. Trying to get information to further your game.

Your behaviour says more than you think it does.

Your actions speaks volumes.

The Way of Things

You’re trying

You’re obsessed

You’re pure evil

You’re a wolf in sheep’s clothing

You’re ‘dog whistle’ keeps getting louder

You’re days MAY be numbered, but that doesn’t mean you’re going to stop

You’re only going to get worse

I have a feeling you’re going to try to eavesdrop in the days ahead

You’ve already changed your routine in the past week

The battle may have shifted but that doesn’t mean you’ll stop pushing boundaries, testing limits, find loopholes…

The control

The power

Your arrogance

Your obsession