There’s been a change in the atmosphere. Something is happening, but I don’t know what it will be. Change is coming.

The tension that is now floating through the building has reached a new height.

I know I’ve crossed a line with the narcissist. I did the unthinkable: I told the world what he was doing. I forced the issue. Now I’m getting the silent treatment. The intense edition.

The panic attacks have started again.

Today was the first time I’ve had a MAJOR one. It came out of nowhere. I’m just sitting with my son and it hits. A debilitating one. It took a few before I could move again because of how bad it was.

The past 36 hours have been rough. Sick kid. Going after the narcissist and his flying monkey. It was only a matter of time before one hit.

It’s only a matter of time before it hits again…

I came. I saw. I called the bluff.

You may not have been in the room while things were being debated, but you were sitting upstairs eavesdropping. You still continued to do so well after ‘the debate’ ended.

Your flying monkey tried her best to defend you. I still called you out. She still refused to acknowledge the issue. In her own way, she confirmed that she knew what you were doing but chose to overlook it. Your hold over her became apparent: she was willing to protect you because of the favours you were providing to help her out.

She knows I’m right.

You know I’m right.

You’ll end up continuing your game. The retaliation will continue and get worse. Your ego knows no limits.

But I called the bluff.

I may be shattered. I may be in pieces. But I still walked away knowing that I proved my point that you were interfering with what you shouldn’t have, and your flying monkey knows. She can deny it all she wants. But she knows.

You snuck up in me

I believe you had me pegged before I knew the real you. You saw something in me that you knew could get you in trouble. Right from the beginning, you started testing the limits.

Once I caught on, it was too late. By that point, you had gone full force. The ripple effects had already taken hold. The spiral had started.

So, I told world what you did. I have no regrets.

I am very well aware you’re still going to come after me even harder now. The retaliation may have started awhile ago, but it’s only going to get worse from here.

This shouldn’t be an either/or situation.

I see you

I see through you

I see through how your changing how you use your ‘dog whistle’

You can try to change things around all you want, to throw me off

You try to make it look like you’re being unpredictable. But you’re not.

It’ll always be the same play, same technique, same everything.

The only thing that’s changed is how you choose to make it look like you’re playing your ‘game’.

As I sit here, looking back on what you’ve done

As I sit here, looking at what’s to come in the days ahead

As I sit here, I have so much to say

I can say the same thing a million times

I can repeat myself until I’m blue in the face

I deserve so much better

My son deserves so much better

You may have the world fooled, but I still see through you

Those few who chose to believe me are rooting for us

You have a large network of enablers and flying monkeys. I see how they carry out your wishes without a second thought. At least one of your flying monkeys doesn’t have a choice, as she’s doing so to deflect the negative attention off of her and onto me. She knows that if she denies your wishes, she’ll get the brunt of it. She may know it’s wrong, but she’s protecting herself. Even if it means I get it all. 8n her mind, better me then her.

NO ONE should be put into that position. NO ONE. This isn’t an either/or. You’re a HORRIBLE human being and those who have seen behind your mask know that.

You don’t fool me.

My child deserves to live in a world where he no longer has to be concerned about about watching his every move, a world that you don’t control. He deserves to live in a world where he can be free to be himself. He deserves to live in a world where his mother isn’t scared you or what you’ll do as payback for figuring you out.

I can ask all I want

I can ask for an explanation, a reason

The answer will always be elusive. Non existent. I will never get one.

The answer very well may be your behavior. It may not be a full explanation. But it’s an answer. And right now you’re behavior is screaming ‘Because I can!’

Doesn’t make it right.

You will never be right.

Your behavior speaks volumes.

It may not be the in depth answer I need, but your behavior still provides an answer.